Sunday, October 26, 2003
F***Ed uP.. Tats the word...
bEen using the wOrd Since we broke up...
TirEd.. Pissed.. watever...
In the relationship he lied.. Now, As friends he lies too..
argh.. i am so tired...
MY life ToTALLY SUCKS...
On fri, i Lost Kevin OkLEy SUNGLASSES...
imagine how i felt manz.. bloody guilty.. and yet he is so nice...
totally speechless...
I feel like i am a totally failure.. pissed with myself..
can't i do anything right...? is my life tat screwed..
Now my saddness has turned into Hatred... U know WHY?
Cause i realised i am stupid... i realised tat all my friends around me are right..
i realised he just played with my feelings...
I haTE ppl who I lIE..
I REALLY HATE THEM!!!!
posted @ 10/26/2003 10:32:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Am i tat useless? HOPeless?
i really feel tat i tried... effort is there.. but it doesn't work.. why.. i always fail.. i dunno why..
Currently, my whole life is screwed... Exams are coming... I just broke up... I was late.. I am broke... etc..
After two years, i finally forgot about KW... i manage to let go... it was tough ya... and now it is another him... time will heal.. thats wat everybody says.. TIME TIME TIME... i know tat myself!! but the amount of time.. the pain ... the saddeness...
wat they always say... it takes one day to fall in love with a person, but one year to forget a person... seriously.. i feel so hopeless.. i can't even make a sim fall in love.. even though no matter how i try.. out of point i know.. but recently been playing sims..
now.. i am just trying to be friends is that hard.. i miss him.. i am trying to refrain myself from thinking.. i can't ... i am scared i dun do well... i disappoint my parents.. i am so f***king stressed up... i feel so lost too... i can remember myself standing at beach road in the hot sun today.. dunno wat to do.. i just dunno where to go.. all i feel like doing was to cry.. sucky life huh?
posted @ 10/22/2003 10:17:00 PM
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Monday, October 20, 2003
already past 12.. not even slping yet.. though i am quite tired.. waiting for fish cake to help me do c programming... i am dead meat manz.. i dunno how to do the c programming questions.. and exams are coming.. tmr is e tech lessons.. guess i am going to wake up late.. i can't really be bothered manz... fish cake is so cute.. he is going to pluck out 1 wisdom tooth tmr.. wahha.. he is going to look like puffer fish manz.... than another one on wed.. and two more end of dec.. i think.. tats what he said.. now i am like so bored manz.. nothin to do.. waiting for fish cake... haiz...
posted @ 10/20/2003 12:10:00 AM
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Thursday, October 16, 2003
i survived... i am not dead... tot i could have just cried and died in my slp after wat happened.. *sarcastic laugh*.. but i am surviving well.. woke up darn early to go to sch to touch up the project.. in the end... there is nothin to touch up on... wasted my beauty slp.. yepz.. had a presentation... the bloody female lecturer sucked.. she was like so bitchy.. keep commenting.. feel like slapping her face.. yah... but wat can i do manz.. chao WTC with kevin, ate swensens icecream... kevin treated... 'thanks babe!!' but i still owe him haagen dazs... *pengz* anywae.. i am so happy tat i am glad i made such great friends in poly, like lester, kevin babe and fish cake.. they were there for me when i was sad... yah.. i feel touched... ant too.. of course... i feel tat friends are still the best of all manz... yepz.. though i still sometimes think of him yah.. like the happy moments even if they are so little....
posted @ 10/16/2003 10:19:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 15, 2003
after so long... of dragging... we broke up.. yah... 3 months and 19 days.. all the effort.. saddness.. all gone into futile... i really tried to let it go.. but i can't... i feel like a piece of shit.. he is not affected by it.. but i am greatly affected... cause for the time we had been together... 80 percent of the effort put in is by me... yah.. but.. u can't keep someone forever... i eventually have to let it go... behind all these ... i know the reason.... he dun love me much... yah... i guess his heart still has someone else... i dunno what to say... i know about it.. but i promised my self before the relationship tat i will make my next relationship work... and watever outcome.. i tried my best.. yepz.. so i have done my best... i can't do much.. it is GOd's will i guess.. all i can do is to be hurt... and cry...
posted @ 10/15/2003 10:28:00 PM
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Thursday, October 09, 2003
argh.. i am dead tired.. and my eyebags are getting bigger and blacker... and pimples R popping out.. argh.. weekends...!! hope it arrives soon i need more slp manz.. i am pratically a walking zombie in the day.. yesterday, my birthday.. i was like so damn tired... was trying to keep myself awake.. and today.. i got rugby.. argh.. i am shagged... exams are coming too.. i haven studied... deep shit... somebody help manz....!!
posted @ 10/09/2003 10:27:00 PM
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Monday, October 06, 2003
Guess Wat.. i tried to learn how to play initial D today.. Kevin and Fish Cake was trying to teach me how to race.. wahaha.. and my car is name after alvin.. cool huh.. spent so much money playing... feel bankrupt right now manz.. i must try to control myself from spending.. or else i will not be able to save money... and i can't buy clothes.. i feel tat i am running out of clothes!!! anywae.. TWO More days.. and I will be 17... will be waiting for that moment....
posted @ 10/06/2003 04:45:00 PM
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Sunday, October 05, 2003
Sunday again.. Boring day.. the whole day trying to think of a collapsible ladder to a chair.. how lame D & V can be manz.. waste of time... got to even draw out the design... argh.. why did i even choose aeronautical??? why must we study this??oh yah... VAN!! i miss my David tao CD... i miss the songs my anata, rain and i like it!! aiyoh.. really got nothing to write manz.. been at home whole day bumming.. keke.. ciaoz.
posted @ 10/05/2003 03:32:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 01, 2003
I am SO TIRED!! My whole body is aching from rugby.. and.. my legs are all so ugly from the mosquito bites... from camp.. all the way to rugby.. keep having mosquito bites.. arGH!!!! and tons of pimples too manz.. can't they just go away... anywae.. at last.. my blog looks much nicer.. thanks to VAN TANG...well.. 7 days more!! and i will be 17 manz.. i think i am talking crap.. guess i have nothin to say. cause my day is so boring ... haiz.. but.. i watch infernal affairs 2!! not bad larz. rating... 4/5? hahax.. even though i didn't really understand and KEVin had to explain the story to me... hahax... Even Saravanan... understands... and he is an indian...and he said it was nice.. so ppl... GO CATCH IT!!
posted @ 10/01/2003 09:08:00 PM
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