Tuesday, March 30, 2004
cried.
it was painful.
my left toe..
sara accidently used the chair and stepped on it.
felt pain after he stepped.
but started crying after seeing blood on my toe.
was trying to stop crying.
but tears kept flowing.
obviously i bent my head and pretend to look at my toe..
or else all the guys will look at me cry..
thank goodness kevin sat next to me and not lester..
or else he will start laughing his ass off..
sara was like apologising to me..
and the row in front of me all were looking at me..
wonderful..
anywae.. my toe should survive.. hope it wun be infected..
hope if i go doc tmr.. the doc wun give me a tetanus jab..
scared.
posted @ 3/30/2004 09:48:00 PM
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Monday, March 29, 2004
"twisted"..
lousy show...
i was trying to understand wat the hell it was talking about..
but ya.. kinda twisted ending larz.. as the title says..
well.. watched it with him..
happy sia..
than we ate at delifrance..
i kept laughing at the way he cut the bread..
well, he gave up on cutting in the end...
after not seeing him for so long..
he changed quite abit..
his looks mostly..
and dressing..
so different..
and one thing is tat his complexion is really not bad..
(think he went for facial manz) *griNZ*
well, he met his friend on the way..
than i rushed to band prac with him and his friend in a cab..
cause i was late.. yeah..
meeting him this wed for dinner i think..
not sure.. hope so..
felt sad though..
guess he still like his recent ex very much..
i envy her? ya..
but.. it is my fault..
and i regretted it badly..
wanted to cry today..
cause i was really depressed..
posted @ 3/29/2004 10:37:00 PM
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Sunday, March 28, 2004
Hope tommorow will be good.
Has been a long time since we went out.
posted @ 3/28/2004 11:13:00 PM
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Will i ever find someone like
HIM?
Someone who I will give my heart completely,
Someone who will make me cry when i miss him,
be there whenever i need him,
make me laugh when i am really down.
Someone who will entertain me whenever I am bored,
help me up when i am in trouble.
Guess i can't.
Thats why he is
unique.
posted @ 3/28/2004 01:45:00 PM
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Saturday, March 27, 2004
back froM boY bOY Kor'S HouSe..
Sadly.. davIan wasn't there...
was damn bored..
trying to entertain myself badly...
well.. at least morning was not so bad after all..
watched GOSPEL OF JOHN..
yeah.. interesting..
just as good as reading the bible..
cause it is word for word...
but draggy..
was with dawn and jolene and my sis..
me and jolene were totally blur during the show..
yeah.. and she.. happily laughing always..
cause JESUS was quite cute.. and he is forever smiling..
hahax.. quite wierd larz.. but yeah.. funny...
NExt show.. will be .. Passion of Christ..
hope i can go in though.. cause it is MT-18.. *SIANZ*
posted @ 3/27/2004 11:16:00 PM
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Thursday, March 25, 2004
bored..
just got nagged by my mother..
i am too skinny and etc..
argh..
like i can help it tat i am too skinny..
trying hard to eat already lorz..
dun expect me to keep stuffing myself with food...
if i can't eat..
thats it..
i can't...
no point forcing me...
argh..
i need tips on how to grow fat..
but not too fat!!
PeepS!! HElp!!
posted @ 3/25/2004 10:44:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 24, 2004
FINALLY!!
I watched a movie after so long....
Watched My girl today..
with shun xing.. at ps..
yeah.. it was great...
the show is nice.. touching..
reminded me of some stuff tat happened in my life..
and u can't turn back time..
yeah..
regretful of some stuff..
anywaes.. great day...
had a good break from my studies..
so stressed up the past week...
soon.. i will be back to studies..
semestrial exams are around the corner..
oh ya.. I walked pass Kang wei at raffles place mrt platform today..
Didn't see him.. but he saw me..
seriously.. this is the first time, we concidently 'meet' outside..
yeah.. i was shocked... cause i used to always hope we do whenever i missed him..
well.. guess today is one of my happiest days..
posted @ 3/24/2004 10:05:00 PM
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Sunday, March 21, 2004
at last..
able to get online..
dunno wats with the connection yesterday...
yepz..
went for the 103km run..
started running at 1.30am..
after waiting for about 2 hours to run..
was kinda a waste of time..
but yeah. .worth it..
east won first! *griNz*
not bad huh...
but i was like freezing the whole nite..
my sore throat and cough was worse..
and i think i have a flu too..
cause the whole nite, i was freezing..
trying to keep myself warm...
but didn't help much..
yeah..
was happy i ran..
did some exercise at last..
surprisingly i didn't feel tired..
well..
CONGRATS EaSt distRict!!
You have doNe weLL!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Like to present U..
Kevin the babe...
hahax..
we were bored in class..
so started taking pics using darren's phone ..
posted @ 3/21/2004 02:09:00 PM
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Thursday, March 18, 2004
back from band practise..
damn tired..
woke up so early today..
yeah..
had workshop early in the morning..
just filing and sand scraping..
argh..
my arm is aching big time..
i feel like as if i dun have any more arms..
well..
took photos with ant today...
hahax.. tons of them..
we were like two kids playing while the rest were having band practise..
yeah..
ant was as usual waiting for nigel..
hahax..
well, once Van load the photos.. definately will put it up under my pics..
yeah..
oh ya.. ant.. than u can get the link from me once i put it up kaez..
hahax.. than u can see how spastic we look..
anywaez... had a great day today..
though tired....
posted @ 3/18/2004 10:47:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 17, 2004
watching AMI..
toDay is nOt bad...
i like camile.. she is unique..
yeah..
ran about 2 rounds round the track..
and sprinted about 300m..
tats like first time in 6 months or more..
ran with bryan and fishcake..
think tat bryan is really damn power..
he ran 2.4 in less than 10..
and fish cake, ran about 2 rounds and he was about to die..
we were suppose to ran the poly 50 but stuff cocked up..
so we didn't run..
ended up running by ourselves..
today was a great but shagged..
happy cause i felt very lax today.. not as stressed..
maybe running really helps to take off my stress...
but i really hate running.. make me perspire..
yucky..
but thank goodness aaron came along..
sent me, darren and bryan home...
or i might just die halfway ... too tired..
how's my hand??
taken with darren's T630
posted @ 3/17/2004 11:27:00 PM
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Tuesday, March 16, 2004
Another workload just came in
just as i was about to say
"ying, u can finally take a break,
most tests are already over..."
best of all, i gotta finish this whole big workload by the end of next tues.
and there is another test next tues.
i am so stressed..
i really need a break..
i dun even have the mood to go for touch rugby..
cause something in my head will keep constantly telling me...
Ying!! U got tons of stuff to do!!
everytime it happens.."
i get turned off..
today i msged alvin too..
(for the first time in practically 6 months)
missed my dkny pullover and my calculator...
felt like having them back..
and wanted to return his stuff..
when he replied me, he seemed like nothin had happened..
he seems happy..
i dunno why..
but i felt the sense of guilt..
i haven forgiven him..
i hate him, yet i missed him..
i missed him making me laugh and happy...
i hate him for making me sad..
for making me trying to stand up back on my both feet..
for hurting my feelings...
but anywae.. it is all over..
it is the past..
well, he said my calculator cover was in a bad shape..
seems that he is using my calculator often..
so i said he can have it...
he wanted to get me another..
but i refused..
i dun wanna something new..
i prefer having the old..
i rather have memories than no memories..
i hope one day i can have it back..
even how tattered or torn it is...
thats lala.. isn't he cute..
posted @ 3/16/2004 06:46:00 PM
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Before the world began, you were on his mind
And every tear you've cried is precious in his eyes
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
And everything was done so you would come
Nothing you can do can make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Can make Him close the door
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
And everything was done so you would come
Come to the Father though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives He will take them all
The power of the Word, the power of His Love
And everything was done so you would come
.:So you would come:.
posted @ 3/16/2004 03:58:00 PM
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Monday, March 15, 2004
Can i break down?
Can i cry..?
Can i just run away from everything tat is giving me problems in my life?
All i wanna do is just be happy..
Yet.. such a simple request in life is sadly hard to acheive...
Depressed over friends, ncc, studies and watever crap..
Nobody seems to understand me...
and i am eventually growing tired...
extremely tired..
Lester ever asked...
"Can u prove to me that Your God is real..tell me a miracle.."
i was dumbfounded...
i realised tat i got nothing to say..
i seem to have drifted..
a lost sheep from God..
trying to find its way back..
lost in the maze...
too tired.. caught in the darkness...
not wanting to move..
i dunno wat to do..
i am unable to juggle time between my studies and training..
wanna go training.. yet..
i have lessons.. tests..
even when i go for camp..
my mind is so occupied about studies..
I hardly have time for myself..
most of the time just trying to catch up with my work and slp...
i wish i have more girlfriends to hang out with..
can confide in them..
So sick of guys..
and sometimes i wanna have somebody to fall back on..
to hug tat somebody whenever i need a hug..
to cry on the shoulder when i am sad..
to share my joy also..
i know God can be that somebody..
but i can't find my way back...
posted @ 3/15/2004 10:41:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 10, 2004
now in ant's house...
ant is a kaypo..
we asked her to get out of her room..
but she is such a stubborn pig..
wanting to know everything...
argh..
well.. it is ant's birthday today..
and i am at her house..
yepz..
with hazel beside me..
how wonderful huh...
well.. peeps..
drop by ant's blog and wish her happy birthday ya...
well, she is 18 now..
i am so extremely happy for her...
hope she will grow more mature huh..
yepz..
now i am going to pass the rest to hazel to write..
hahax..
HazEL spEAKs:
liar..
she makes me speechless..
ying is such an evil gal..
like she always is..
anyway..
Ying speaks>>
whatever huh..
hahax..
okies.. not going to pass back to hazel..
so ya..
gtg off soon..
like now..
bye..
posted @ 3/10/2004 09:42:00 PM
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Sunday, March 07, 2004
frustrated.. sad... disappointed... hurt... cheated...
my feeling are so mixed till beyond description...
sometimes.. i really feel like breaking down...
just came back from camp feast...
it is very experiential..
seriously..
managed to work with people who backstabbed me..
with people who think they are great... egoistic...
and everything...
i am so stressed over stuff..
friends... ncc.. my work..
and i feel seriously lost..
my friends in ncc are screwed up..
erm... well.. some?
my tests are next week..
yet i dun have the mood to study..
i am just so disappointed in someone i trusted...
looked so innocent.. yet.. looks are really decieving..
yeah.. maybe thats the working world..
gotta keep a look out on people around you...
was so ignorant about people..
naive tat my friends are trusted..
tats my downfall..
i feel hopeless...
wish they can just go away..
rather be lonely person..
than always getting cheated by them...
everytime i find out about it..
i cry..
not that i am a crybaby or something..
just can't help it..
HURT!! tats the word...
I JUST HATE PEOPLE WHO HURT ME!
posted @ 3/07/2004 09:33:00 PM
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Thursday, March 04, 2004
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!
dunno wat the hell is happening.
NCC is fucking screwed up..
Tell me all the last min stuff...
give me a break manz!!!
i am so tired with NCC shit..
the ppl there are so screwed too..
fuck them..
i miss the seniors..
things are right when they are there..
now they are gone..
and the juniors help to screw it worse..
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted @ 3/04/2004 10:06:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 03, 2004
been watching gundam..
yeah.. influenced by kevin...
chiong 30 episodes in 2 days...
feeling shag...
well, the show is indeed nice..
yeah.. touching and cool..
changed the background too..
to Kira Yamato..
yeah.. he is cool...
well,now i can at last concentrate on my work..
many tests after this week..
quite stressed...
oh manz..
hope i can finish studying by next week..
hahax..
posted @ 3/03/2004 08:15:00 PM
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