Sunday, August 29, 2004
at last my comp is up..
after so long of trying to set up the internet..
yupz.. and i am stuck with the old pentium 3 computer..
getting on my nerves but i gotta 'ren'..
better than nothin..
at least i get my own PC.
yeah.. but my lucky sister get the pentium 4 one..
but wat to do.. she is older..
at least this works well enough at the moment..
just bought a MP3 today at the comex fair..
feeling really great..
at last.. music to hear on the way to sch..
no more boring trips..
music totally rocks.
yeah..
now i am just waiting PATIENTLY for my music to load to the comp..
so i can upload into my MP3..
and i still gotta wake up early for tmr SOL..
decided to become a kind soul to accompany ant..
yeah..
oh yeah..
VANESSA TANG CHUN YAN..
I SO MISS YOU..
where have u been hiding..
i have not seen u in years..
you better come and meet me one day to chill..
stop burying ur face in ur projects or watsoever..
spend alittle bit of time with ur dear friend who misses u so damn much!!
OK?
Love ya gal..
posted @ 8/29/2004 01:26:00 AM
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Thursday, August 19, 2004
Feeling happy,
never had that feeling for such a long time
my fundementals of flight went quite well,
considering me kan cheonging the whole of the morning and afternoon trying to understand everything,
had to even skip 2 lectures to study for the test.
For making everything go well, i really Thank GOD for it.
Ended up skipping rugby to celebrate my happiness,
took a break before cheonging to study for my next test on sat.
walked around west mall with pang chune,
felt really relaxed,
i hope things will go well for the next few days.
posted @ 8/19/2004 09:24:00 PM
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Wednesday, August 18, 2004
i am really tired,
i just feel like i am part of a show,
most of the people around me are just wearing masks,
playing their role of actors/actresses.
in front of me, they are so warm to me,
so friendly,
hoping for me to fall into the trap layed for me.
behind their masks,
they are filled with glee,
having a sense of satisfaction seeing me walking right into their trap.
but eventually,
i suspect their intentions,
and i really hope that that wasn't their intentions,
cause it will really hurt me.
but all i can do is to act normal and ignorant,
so that they won't know that i am hurt.
i wish i have someone whom i really trust,
who will be there whenever i need help,
who has no intentions or what so ever..
but it is going to be tough,
cause i can't seem to find anyone like that.
i feel hurt.. cause i realised i miss you.
posted @ 8/18/2004 06:44:00 PM
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Saturday, August 14, 2004
so i failed.
once again.
not surprising.
i got the same fucking lecturer.
hate him.
all i do is argue with him.
Maths this morning was bad too
came out confident of getting full marks
but when i started to compare answers.
the confident face of mine became shitty.
i was starting to get scared.
i got some wrongs.
and that is a total disappointment.
first thing i did was to msg ant.
to tell her my day has just wonderfully crashed cause of maths.
i am happy to have her around nowadays when i really needed her,
yeah. so at least i know somebody is there for me always.
thanks gal, for being there...
i love you lots..
posted @ 8/14/2004 05:56:00 PM
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Friday, August 13, 2004
so when i reread wat i blogged yesterday,
i felt like i am so damn in love with him.
gosh.
i felt dumb.
well, i am not in love with him.
but just feeling totally hurt.
yeah.
anywae, had a great day today..
lester enjoyed himself i hope..
and now he is enjoying himself with kevin in a hotel.
yeah.
hope they study for test tmr..
posted @ 8/13/2004 11:43:00 PM
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY LESTER!!
been a long while since i last blog.
hardly had time for myself to relax.
my schedule was packed so tightly,
breathing properly was like a problem to me,
the thought of all the work piling up is strangling me.
never had such a feeling after so long.
it seems year two won't be easy after all.
i really hope i can make it through.
hardwork and constant study is definately the factors included in it.
and i really hope i can survive.
5 tests the next week,
and i haven studied well,
my mood is just not there.
lots of emotions ran through me.
it comes than it goes.
comes, goes, comes, goes.
i felt like i am going through some menopause period, or maybe just frequent PMS-ing?
but nobody knows as usual,
cause i am always happy as usual.
my comp didn't help much too,
crashing every now and than,
making me feel anxious cause of my project saved in my comp with backups.
and i need to hand up tomorrow.
surprisingly, i works now.
THANK GOD.
but the printer has no ink,
not helping me as usual.
alright..
back to my eccentric emotions,
been thinking alot about the past,
and i always wonder when people say
"i love you"
do they say for the sake of it?
or do they mean it?
it seems nowadays
the word
LOVE
has lost its meaning.
"i love you FOREVER"
"I promise to love you with all my heart today, tomorrow and FOREVER.."
"if i know what love is, it is because of YOU.."
do they really mean it when they say these stuff or even msg?
i don't think so,
because it seems like recently,
i just experience it,
he says
he still loves me,
but yet
he has no time for me.
and so it ends.
but what i don't understand is,
if you do love a person,
u will be willing to spend time with her/him.
no matter how busy you are, u will at least still miss him/her and drop her/him a msg at least.
how can a person still love another but yet forget him/her just like that.
he never msg back the next day,
he acts like nothing happens (which is partially good),
he just don't care anymore,
how can
he just do that?
i really don't understand.
i am really disappointed.
not only in
him, but others too.
because they are all
LIARS.
and i hate them.
posted @ 8/13/2004 01:09:00 AM
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Sunday, August 01, 2004
To an idiot:
suddenly missed you today and yesterday,
and was happy to see you online,
but you just gotta pissed me off.
i dunno why,
maybe all u can do is to piss me off.
i really wonder why i can still miss or even think of you.
F*** mAnz.
posted @ 8/01/2004 11:17:00 PM
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