Tuesday, September 25, 2007
I cried myself to sleep last night.
Over you. Your actions.
I think i am too sensitive.
Or maybe we just think differently.
This is not what i wanted.
I thought i meant more.
Now i know i don't.
But at least i understand why its happening to me.
Labels: Who am i to you?
posted @ 9/25/2007 10:30:00 PM
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Monday, September 24, 2007
I just wish it didn't hurt.
posted @ 9/24/2007 04:50:00 PM
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Sunday, September 23, 2007
The Song has been constantly ringing in my head since i woke up.
Here it goes:
Hey girl, you know you drive me crazy.
One look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around.
I see what's going down.
Cover up with makeup in the mirror,
Tell yourself it's never gonna happen again.
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect;
Every action in this world will bear a consequence.
If you wait around forever you will surely drown.
I see what's going down.
I see the way you go and say you're right again,
Say your right again
Heed my lecture
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found
One day she will tell you that she has had enough.
It's coming round again.
One day she will tell you that she has had enough.
It's coming round again.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has
Face down in the dirt she said "this doesn't hurt"
She said "I've finally had enough"
Face down in the dirt she said "this doesn't hurt"
She said "I've finally had enough"
Face Down By Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Labels: Face Down
posted @ 9/23/2007 01:52:00 PM
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Monday, September 17, 2007
Stupid stupid stupid.
Van's favorite phrase is sinking into my vocab.
Well, cause in the first place i am stupid too.
Stupid enough to fall into this kinda shit.
I really can't stand that he has another.
Really not easy.
As Aaron says, no status.
Obviously. Cause its my choice.
So i have to shut up and eat it up.
I wish i can weigh between the importance of studying or him.
Or even my driving.
I canceled my driving lessons, i am willing to study less in the lib.
I am willing to clear time.
Why isn't he doing the same?
It really hurts.
Labels: Stupid... Again
posted @ 9/17/2007 08:18:00 PM
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For the people who mean so much to me.
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go
And if you’re faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walkin’ ‘til you find the window
If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything
My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish
I hope you never look back but you never forget
All the ones who love you
And the place you left
I hope you always forgive and you never regret
And you help somebody every chance you get
Oh, you find God’s grace in every mistake
And always give more than you take
But more than anything, yeah more than anything
My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish
This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big
Rascal Flatts - My WishLabels: My Wish
posted @ 9/17/2007 02:42:00 PM
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Friday, September 14, 2007
Bored.
Really bored.
Another Boring Friday.
Not as happening as the people on the streets.
Have lots of work to do.
Plenty of assignments.
Assignments i really don't want to start.
But i obviously have to.
Labels: Boring Friday
posted @ 9/14/2007 09:08:00 PM
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Thursday, September 13, 2007
I have no idea why i am blogging right now in school.
Its so stupid.
The thought of me rushing down just to meet him is plain stupid.
I thought he needed alot of help.
Apparently not.
I still ended up waiting for him.
If he sincerely needed my help,
i will not be waiting.
I skipped dinner.
I packed dinner for him.
I left the rest when i could actually have a nice meal with them.
The meal i cooked.
Here he comes, i wish i didn't make an effort to come down.
posted @ 9/13/2007 06:44:00 PM
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Sunday, September 09, 2007
Fuck.
I cant concentrate.
Stupid thoughts are running in and out my head.
The propulsion notes are just staring back at me as i stone at the equations.
i need to give up. i need to let go.
That is definitely the angel side of my brain bugging me.
yet the evil side is telling me the direct opposite.
I need strength. To make my thoughts real.
To stop thinking and turn it into actions.
But i am too weak. I think.
All i can do is feel fucking pathetic at myself.
And on top of that. Fucking guilty.
Fucking selfish.
Labels: Fuck
posted @ 9/09/2007 09:25:00 PM
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